A Prayer for Surrender

a Lenten discipline

O Sovereign God -

As I stand on the threshold of myself, I behold a vast sea. What prevents me from taking that first step into the warmth of your mercy? Is it that I fear losing control of my life, such as it is? Is it a lack of trust in your infinite goodness? Help me to take that first step, tentative as it might be. I could dip a toe in and test the water - maybe you are good, maybe you can take care of me. But first I must disrobe. I have to remove these false constructions of self. I must bare myself before the throne where you sit on the mercy seat. I am scared of what I might find beneath my “clothes.” I am afraid you might laugh at my silliness or punish me for failing to exercise my willpower adequately. What am I afraid of - the truth of myself? How can I be afraid when I put my trust in the Almighty Sovereign? I must trust in you, I must trust in your goodness, I must surrender myself to the wonderful waters of your mercy.

AMEN